i find i say sorry ALOT - and not for the big things. i can't find the words to say sorry for the huge hurt i feel i have caused, but i say sorry endlessly for little stuff. i guess it's because i feel i am a burden to others and i feel i make a lot of mistakes, i know i'm not perfect and i will make mistakes and it is right to apologise; but, today i am going to try not to apologise for everything i do but maybe just actually write a note to my family saying sorry for the big stuff that's happened between us instead.