Scared and lost, help pls

Im a TransMale and I am on the waiting list for Tavistock in London but it's getting harder and harder to deal with the body I'm in, I've had to take down all the mirrors in my room as I cry when I look at myself..I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I go cahms but they do not help me (I've been there for two years) I have major trust issues and therefore isolate myself from others.. also I had recently got out of hospital after a rough time (2nd time in a month) and have been moved foster placements as the lady didn't want me there anymore, I honestly don't know what to do with myself all I keep doing is relapsing and screwing up... Also cahms is putting me on medication.. I'm scared that at my next placement my keyworkers will hate me because of my issues...

ALUMINA

Alumina is a free, online 7 week course for young people struggling with self-harm. Each course has up to 8 young people, all accessing the sessions from their own phones, tablets or laptops across the UK. The courses take place on different evenings of the week and are run by friendly, trained counsellors and volunteer youth workers. You don’t need an adult to refer you or sign you up, and no-one will see or hear you during the sessions – you’ll just join in via the chatbox. We want to help you to find your next steps towards recovery, wherever you are on your journey.

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