14 year old and self harming

i been self harming all myself on and off. i stop now because im in love is been a year now scene i stop cutting but recently i been feeling down more then ever i normally start cutting when i feel like this but i don't know what to do i cant stop crying. and i really dont want to talk to my partner about it. because he send if i cut again is the end of me and him? But i want to just end this pain im feeling.

ALUMINA

Alumina is a free, online 7 week course for young people struggling with self-harm. Each course has up to 8 young people, all accessing the sessions from their own phones, tablets or laptops across the UK. The courses take place on different evenings of the week and are run by friendly, trained counsellors and volunteer youth workers. You don’t need an adult to refer you or sign you up, and no-one will see or hear you during the sessions – you’ll just join in via the chatbox. We want to help you to find your next steps towards recovery, wherever you are on your journey.

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