I started harming myself, without realizing whats I was doing, because I was bored. I didn't want to cause myself pain, but I didn't have anything else to do. Then, I used it to transfer the violence I had toward other person on me. I felt like I deserved it, not them. After a while, it was like an addiction. My body needed it, and so I found myself for example using my locker door to hit my head with it without having the consciousness of doing it. But now, I feel pleasure doing so, not the usual shame. It relaxes me, mind and body. It happened for the second time this week.Is it normal ? I feel like it is gotten worse with the time. Can it become dangerous for me ? I never cut, but I am afraid I will. I already strangle myself a bit.

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